About me

My name is Jessica.

As of writing this, I’m 26 years old.

I’m a citizen of middle-class, white America.

I am bi-racial: black, and white.  I say black first because the white is assumed when saying bi-racial in my every day conversations.  No ‘black power’ going on here.

I’m currently studying programming and database management at the local tech college.  I’m a few classes short of graduating and this is the cause of much stress for me.  I’m not a great student because of my issues, but I love to learn.  The current model of college institutions needs burnt to the ground and rebuilt from scratch, from the rampant bureaucracy to the way student loan money is handled.  As soon as I have proof I jumped through their hoops, I’m never looking back.

I am currently unable to work because of my issues and I’m working with the local Bureau of Rehabilitation to get back to it.  I want to work, I simply can’t handle it currently.  Because of this, school is my job… that I have to pay back.

America, fuck yeah.

I use marijuana medically to control my mood, as well as on the weekends with friends instead of drinking.  As with any drug, it has it’s side affects that I would prefer to do without in my day to day life, but science is again being halted by religion in that aspect.  I obviously think that marijuana should be completely legalized, regulated to a moderate degree in line with other ‘legal intoxicants’, and taxed… heavily for all I care.  I want to walk into a store, get some white rhino, pay with a credit card, and go home.

I’m a gamer at heart, but my ‘issues’ (for lack of a better term) make it hard to concentrate on one game long enough to even call it ‘playing’.  

Pokémon is my favorite game, but it’s hard to say it like that because what I mean is the entire franchise.  The Pokémon Company is my favorite company.  I’ve been into the series since day 1, and even though I’m far from ‘catching them all’, I’m a megafan… just not really the anime.  I’m more into the game mechanics and the metagame.

Music is very important to me, but it was one of the first things I lost because of my illness, or whatever.  I couldn’t play it anymore, I didn’t want to.  I stopped listening to it, stopped caring about it for a really long time.  I’m just now starting to get it back, and may someday be able to pick up an instrument again.  For now, being able to listen to music while I drive in the car is good for me.

I’m an animal lover.  When you picked one of those ‘big carreers’ when you were a kid… fireman, policeman, doctor, teacher… I chose veterinarian.  Now of course, as I got older and realized the truth to that job just like the other kids learned theirs, I started to explore more realistic careers.  Sadly, I decided to simply take after my parents and become a band director.  That lead to several years of school jumping between majors like microbiology and educational interpretation.

Eventually I quit school and disappeared for 7 years with a manipulative son-of-a-bitch, and I don’t use that term lightly.  I’m still coming to terms with the fact that I… me… was in an abusive relationship that I actually did manage to escape from.  I lost most of my sanity, but I’m still in tact and rebuilding.

I’m currently in the process of finding out who I am while I simultaneously figure out what I want to do for the rest of my life.  Never mind the fact I have issue after issue trying to hold me back.  I’m trying to catch up with so many people, but it’s difficult.  However, I keep moving forward.  And as long as I keep moving forward and don’t look back, I’m going to eventually make it… or die trying.

So, that’s who I am.  If you read that, you deserve a medal or something.  Stay lifted.

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